Homesick

This happens every time, but I always get sad when I have to leave home for school.

 

I miss my parents dearly. I miss my family. I miss having my little bros. I just miss home.

 

To my mom, I know you probably have experienced the worst of my tantrums and all, I’m sorry for that. Please understand that I love you with all of my heart and I thank you for giving me life. I think about you daily and worry for you when you are most troubled. I honestly wish you the best and for happiness in your life because you really deserve it. I love you mom. I always have, and always will. Thank you for all that you’ve done to keep this family together. You raised three beautiful children, and I look up to you for sacrificing so much for us. I want to return the favor to you someday. Hopefully soon will you be able to rest and take it easy. I will take care of you.

 

To my dad, you carry so much weight of the family that I want you to know I appreciate your efforts wholeheartedly and I thank you for continuing to support me in all I do. Without you, I wouldn’t have the backbone I have now. You’ve taught me street smarts and to be an intelligent person. I’ve always enjoyed your cooking and your laughs. They keep me the happy person I am today. I will always be reminded of the things you used to say when I was little. Ever since, I know I’ve always been a daddy’s girl, and I’ll always love you dad.

 

Oh man, here come the tears :*(

 

To my brother Matthew, I am so proud of you and your accomplishments to get to where you are today. You are a brilliant individual and no matter what I will always have your back. I remember the times we used to play and argue when we were little. You even remind me of Jeffrey today! I know I used to get on your nerves a lot… and pick on you. Lol, but I truly care for you as my little brother. I will always cherish the inside jokes we have, that nobody else understands. Also, we have a secret language that only us siblings could understand and that is something no one can take away from us. I love you little bro.

 

To my youngest brother Jeffrey, you are so spoiled now little one! I can’t believe how fast you’ve grown up to be. You haven’t changed one bit. Ever since you were born, you always had that silly smile on your face, and your cute eyes and everything! Such a playful child, always happy and energetic. I owe it to you and your older brother that I haven’t been around to help guide you when the going gets tough, but I want you to know that you were the main reason and my motivation for these past years for the toughest situations that I’ve been trying to overcome. I’ve witnessed the day since you were born into this world, and now I wish that you enjoy the years of your youth! I want you to have the childhood we once used to dream about. I will always love you little one. You are our family’s future and the glue that holds us together.

 

I felt this appropriate because I’ve been reminiscing about the past, and also I’m returning to school tomorrow….

Frank Ocean stuck in my head

Well, the days are finally coming to an end. Break is almost over, and I think I did the most I could for break 🙂 it was most definitely a memorable one, although I didn’t take a single picture 😦 but i’ll always have these memories forever. To keep it short, I am happier, but I’m going to aim to be better. The last thing I want to make known is that I’ll be going places, not sure but I know very soon my adventures will begin again 🙂

I got it! New Years Resolution

Yeah I’m 2 days late, but effitt.

 

Decided I should blog about my days cause this stuff is important! And it will help me remember things from now on ^__v

So, lately I’ve been thinking. And thinking…. just about the days where I’m the most happiest and feel like myself. Recently, I’ve been able to see some friendly faces who I haven’t seen in quite a while. These people who I’ve met, I can’t picture another day where I’ve felt the most happiest. Not a single stress, just good company! This is what I’ve been looking for and I will make sure of it–to reconnect with those who are worth keeping close to. I know I’ve grown up observing all the people I’ve met and there are some people that I could actually feel comfortable being friends with til the end of time. For others, is not the case. Then again, not everyone was made to fit in my life. And I’m fine with that 🙂 It’s the effort that I consider and the fact that one wants to keep in contact with me will make a dent in my life. AND THEY ALREADY HAVE. These members of society have done a perfect job keeping peace and happiness in this world. I want to stay around positive vibes this year. Negativity is a negative! Haha, I’m gonna keep smiling and my head held high cause the people that got my back I sure as hell would pick them up in an instant.

The Down Right Truth

I can’t tell you, she’s not right for you. That’s not fair to you at all. You deserve the best, and I’m sure I don’t need to tell you that.

But just so you know, if my premonitions were right to begin with, then I will probably have nothing to do with you.