Letting go…

It’s about time that I wake up from this dream and start living reality.

 

Maybe my dreams have been trying to tell me something. All the vividness and the extreme outcome of my subconscious has given me all the reason to just let go and move on. A part of me is taking this quite easy. I know that if things end up the way it’s supposed to be, things are fair for the both of us. We will be given both a clean slate and a freshbrand new start. If I try to follow my heart, I know my inner thoughts will haunt me for the rest of the time being.

 

At first, we had something that I thought could possibly work out just fine. Everything was close to perfect, and we worked on all these things moving on together. But as time has gone by, there hasn’t been progress. In all honesty, I don’t feel we have used our full potential to help each other the way we’re supposed to. So now we’re both stuck in a situation we wanted to avoid at all costs.

 

What hurts the most is that I care for you so much. Knowing that I may be the possibility of your downfall, and even the fact your parents think this way, it hurts me inside way too much. I’ve always loved you, always will… and like every situation, if you love something, you got to let it go. I don’t want to hurt you, I just want what is best for you. I always want what is in your best interest. I hope that someday you understand why I am doing this… I may regret my choice, but this decision seems like the only plausible way for you to be able to grow and you must do this on your own. I know that this is the best decision because my gut feeling is telling me so. My conscience tells me to make the best decisions and I know that time will heal these wounds.

 

I am really sorry for failing you as  girlfriend. I was supposed to be there for you at your lowest points, to motivate you to continue and pursue your goals, and especially make sure you are happy. I can’t help but feel this is really my fault, cause I am in denial for having thought things between us were perfect–but it’s not. I do hope you understand that even though we have gone through so much together, there’s always the present and future that makes us as well. I want to be selfish, but that just isn’t fair to you at all. I need to let go the fact that things’ll work out on its own, so I am taking the initiative to better improve both of our lives.

 

I hope you find what you are truly searching for… You are my light and my shield, always brightening my day and protecting me from any harm. This is why I truly love you, because you contain these qualities and never will I find someone as special as you. I’m trying to swallow these circumstances as much as I can, but I can’t hold back the pain behind my heart. It aches for you, and I don’t want you to be brought down in any way.

 

Please find your way and regain the happiness in your life that you deserve. I don’t want to be a burden to you anymore.

 

I love you. With all of my heart, mind, and soul, and never have I felt this way about someone the way I do about you. You are so special to me that I will do anything for you. Please trust me. This is the best for both you and I.

 

Sincerely,

-Me.