I’m getting back to the old me, BRAND NEW.

I’m feeling on this euphoric high that things are going wrong in so many ways, but despite it all I’m still going to keep my head up through it all. I seriously am way too happy to be thinking that life has got me down in the dumps. To be honest, it’s just going to push me to work harder.

I am so thankful to have people in my life that continue to push me and look out for me and support in every way they can. It’s refreshing to know that I have someone beside me without having to physically be there.

I know I’m going to get through this. It’s time to make a change for the better, once again.

Future self, things just got REAL. Meaning, you must push yourself and keep your goals in sight. No time for mess ups or laziness. DO YOU, and do what you gotta do!

 

I miss you–Oh nostalgia

Baby, I miss you so much. I don’t know if this is just me emotionally speaking, but I know that my heart feels such a longing for you. In the back of my mind, not one second is there a possibility that what we have could instantly vanish. And as of right now, I wouldn’t want that to happen. I’m so torn because I’ve never been in a long distance relationship, which entails so many unknowns and questions. Being that we’re in the situation we’re in though, it can’t be helped. I hope that you still feel the same way I feel about you and that someday we’ll be together again. It’s really hard trying to get used to not seeing your face next to mine and it makes my throat choke a little cause all I really want is to be embraced by your warm hug, your kind smile, and your gentle heart. Please know I am going to be strong for myself and the both of us. You always taught me this at my lowest points. To also be patient and understanding and overall not stress about a thing. I just miss you that’s all. But if it’s worth the wait, then I’d do it for you baby. Until that day we can be with each other again, we’ll have to work on being a better person ourselves. I love you so much that it makes me cry cause what we have is so beautiful. And no one else compares nor can say they have been what we’ve been through. You are not like the rest and you make me happy. Baby, please wait for me, I’ll wait for you.