Cold autumn

Only realizing that today I let go a lot of things that I held onto emotionally and physically that I hoped to see again in to remind myself of how far I’ve come.

I also realized the direct relationship I have of other people is modeled by my younger self, which I do not intend to repeat.

Another realization happens to be that I know that I’m growing in the direction I want to be in… I just have to put more effort than I realize I am doing. Need to reach 200%.