Life Lesson #3: Go For It

The feelings that you have deep down and are afraid to express it.. My advice to you: Just Do It.

I feel a weight of pressure off my shoulders cause I went with my gut instinct. I just needed an extra push to get me where I needed to be.

At this point, all I want to feel is happiness. Thanks Tyang. I still think you’re ahmazing. Also, I will keep this to myself to keep my sanity.

I am so flustered right now, I’m smiling ear to ear.. And by the way, I still got it 😉

Floating

I’m at a point in my life where I want to figure it all out, but also don’t know where to begin. Really shouldn’t be biting off more than what I can chew though.

So, I’m still learning. Every passing day, it’s not over yet. I still have so much to learn. I need to take it easy and not be so hard on myself. Often, it’s easier to blame others but also easiest to take blame. And truthfully, I want to find the balance between everything thus far. The control is intoxicating, about how badly I want to take initiative, my obsessions take over and I become a menace to my mental.

I am seeking tranquility. A break from all the madness I have experienced. Something tells me I’m going in the right direction 🙂

Life Lesson #2: Perspective and Honesty

Tonight, I had some really good conversations with someone I potentially think is the most dopest individuals I’ve met thus far. So much about this person.. I feel motivated to do what I want, grant it be guided in the right direction in life and is willing to go that extra mile for me. I feel SO happy! I can’t contain my happiness that I’m writing about it right now.

Anyway, I’m glad to share experiences with someone who has had life experiences and be able to tell me everything from right and wrong. And I’m looking forward to more enlightening conversations in the future. A part of me should learn how to let go, and at the same time I want to still have control over the situation. Even so, I need to learn how to live in the moment. Express how I feel, and be honest with myself and others.

For today, I’ll write a haiku:

Good conversations. Discovering dreams and hopes. What the future holds.

Til then.. 🙂

Nighttime thoughts

I’ve been given the opportunity to work from home and it’s been a real experience. Working at home has its perks, but not necessarily how I imagined it to be. I’ve been on my grind for the past few weeks trying to catch up on work and I finally did so today! (Well sort of..) But still I am so glad of what I’ve accomplished so far.. And as soon as everything is squared away, I’ll be able to hold my own ground and pursue my goals.

I am seriously living and loving my life right now. The opportunities are there and I just have to grab them with both hands and feet if necessary.

Once I start getting into habit of a routine, I’ll be much closer to achieving my nearer goals 🙂

L.A.

Only realizing that trying to find parking for a good 30 minutes this morning, this is the city that keeps you moving.

That’s what I want, I need to keep being on my feet if I ever want to achieve something great. So, I will master finding free parking. Do what I must to get to the next level and be superb at all the skills I want to accomplish NOW.

My first week here was quite productive though. The memories of just going back to Riverside is faint.. Fading quite rapidly. But I still have reason to go back (to get Buddy the Betta) and at the same time see those familiar faces I’ll never forget. This past week was also a door to new opportunities. Who knew how soon I would get a chance like this? Meeting fantastic individuals I never thought existed, let alone in my figment of imagination.

I need to tone down the obsession and infatuation levels down a lot. It can be quite distracting when I need to be my most productive self.
Above all, life is good. I am so excited to begin this new journey. ❤

It’s my last night in Riverside..

Done proper. Saw the people I needed to see and couldn’t ask for more. I truly believe that the best things happen unexpectedly. I’m grateful for who I’ve become and who I’ve yet to be. I hope that this can be the inspiration for me to move forward and do what I need to do to be simply happy.

—-side note.
I’m incredibly infatuated with Tyang. The immeasurable and pleasurable things I want to do gives me happiness. Ughhhh tonight would’ve been the night but timing is definitely never the best. A part of me is gonna miss having them in proximity. When I needed help.. From being down and sad, he cheered me up from the get go. I hope to repay him the favor some day because he’s done so much for me that I’m able to live happily again. It’s funny how we can connect so deeply on one topic. What makes it beautiful is that

what we want, we usually can’t have

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Anyway. I’m going to sleep with a smile on my face, and will be waking up with a brand new perspective.

Hello next chapter, I’m ready for you. 😉